Tough race, Tough love…

I really wanted to start each post with a song lyric, but I swear every song I think of is some kind of love song… do I not listen to anything else?

Regardless, the ING Miami Marathon was a tough race, but an overall great trip. We made it in the nick of time to the expo on Saturday where I was super excited to see my name on the wall! I was also super excited to see how great my bib looked! From there we met up with some of my teammates for our pasta dinner and early night back to the hotel.

The Metromover in Miami is amazing! We stayed about a mile from the start line and with the Metromover running every five minutes starting at 4:30am, I was able to leave around 4:45 from the hotel and make it over to the start to meet up with my team by 5:15. With most of us together, we got some quick photos in and all hurried into our corrals. The temperatures at this point before the sun was already in the mid-70s. I felt the humidity in the air and for the first half, I felt like my head was burning up. Here are some thoughts that went through my mind that day…

  • Mile 1 – “Why are people walking already? Seriously, if you’re going to walk, get to the side. I shouldn’t have to dodge people in mile 1. And stop standing in the middle of the road taking pictures.”
  • Mile 2 – “Geez, this causeway is really long. When are we getting over to South Beach?”
  • Mile 5 – “South Beach is really not as pretty running through it as it is when I walk around in my bathing suit.”
  • Mile 8 – “Why are all these mini bridges unpaved? I’m going to get my foot stuck on these rungs and then I’m going to sue!”
  • Downhills – “Why is there is a sign that says, ‘This downhill is brought to you by ING?’ Didn’t ING bring me the uphill before this as well?”
  • Water stations – “Why is the water warm? Why won’t you hand me the water instead of making me fight my way towards the table? These are precious seconds.” (Yes, this was me thinking I’m an “elite” runner where I may actually lose a race over seconds.)
  • Mile 13 – “The split off is not clearly labeled. I almost ran through the half marathon finish, but I guess that wouldn’t have been that bad, huh? I hate you, half-marathoners, I wish I could be done now too.”
  • Mile 14 – “Peace and quiet. No more runners, no more crowds, and no more music. How am I going to make it another 12 miles?”
  • Mile 14.5 – “If I don’t see Josh here, I’m going to kill him (like that time he missed me at the halfway mark in Philadelphia). Phew, I see him, but I don’t want to acknowledge him. It’s too hot and I’m too tired.”
  • Mile 17 – “Coconut Grove is really quiet. Man, this sucks. Where are the people?”
  • Mile 18 – “Everyone around me is walking. Coach Brian said to me before the race to relax for this because I have nothing to prove since I already ran my first marathon. Well, I’m going to walk. I don’t think walking is what he meant, but I’m too hot and I don’t care.”
  • Mile 18.2 – “Walking is dumb. I’m running again. I can do it, right? Only another eight miles.”
  • Mile 19 – “Nah, let’s walk a little more. Glad I did because I met a Chinese woman who is here from Baltimore. It’s too bad I didn’t get her name or bib number, but this is my first conversation with another human in over three hours!”
  • Mile 20 – “Okay, this view of Biscayne Bay is much better than Coconut Grove homes.”
  • Mile 20.5 – “A little push. This volunteer at the water station was like yeah, ‘@cindyruns, I’m going to follow you on Twitter. You better follow me back!’ Okay, buddy, I don’t even know who you are!”
  • Mile 22 – “Really? Why are we running part of the way towards a bridge and then turning around? Did the course creators realize that they were two miles short so they needed to add this? This is such an after thought”
  • Mile 22.5 – “How do I figure out how to look at elapsed time on my watch? This is why Josh wanted me to practice swapping between views on my runs. Ugh, okay, got it. Haha, can’t PR on this race anymore. Might as well walk a little more.”
  • Mile 23 – “This causeway is really hot. I need water and oh apparently, I get a side of cheerleaders in your face too! They are really too close to me. But there’s only a 5K left, that’s easy.”
  • Mile 24 – “No, a 5K is not easy after running for over four hours already. Finally, land, okay, Brickell Avenue, I can handle this. Two more miles.”
  • Mile 25 – “Our hotel. I should just go into the air conditioning. And oh, the pool, that would be nice. Oh wait, that’s Josh! Why is he here? He said he would be waiting for me at the finish. Man, now, I really need to look like I’m trying for the camera.”
  • Mile 25.1 – “I need to remember to tell Josh later that I never want him to run a marathon. No one should ever put their body through this. This is the worst. Why do I do this to myself? <looking up at the sky> Right, thank you Nin-nin (grandma), you helped me realize how much I loved running… but this is the reason Chinese people don’t like their children to do physical activities.”
  • Mile 25.8 – “Uphill, really? Okay, not a real uphill like Queensboro Bridge, but any elevation change at this point is not welcome.”
  • Mile 26 – “But for every uphill is a downhill brought to you by ING. I hate you ING.”
  • Mile 26.2 – “I finish. Man, I really I hope I finished in under 4:40… crap, I cut it really close.”
  • FINISH – “Where’s my double spinning medal? Crap, my watch thinks I ran it in 4:40:07. Ugh. What’s the official time? How do I figure that out? Oh, I have a QR code on my bib. Crap, how do I scan that thing again? <Fumbles for phone> Okay, I need Google. Got it, scan, man, they’re better at this than Philadelphia was. Crap, 4:40:08. Shoot, I easily wasted a lot of nine seconds throughout the course.”
BIG disappointment is how I felt when I finished. I knew I mentally I broke down, but how could I let myself do that? I ran faster in Philadelphia with injury. I mean I know it was a lot hotter than the 16 degree weather we were training in and I know that I just ran two marathons in the course of two months and with my injury, I trained for less than a month for this race. I know, no excuses. But really, I can run 26.2 miles straight, no walking, why did I give in? Running is 90% mental and 10% physical.
However, I felt much better as soon as I saw my teammate, Julio and then Josh made his over to the finish. Over iMessage, my mother-in-law said to me that she knew I’d be disappointed and somehow that made me feel better too. Then I talked to my mom, and she’s like, “Why are you done so soon?” Oh mom, clearly you’re weren’t tracking me as closely as you said you would! 
Regardless, the next couple of hours after the marathon were actually pretty amazing. I was able to walk, a big difference from Philadelphia. The weather was warm and we were able to stay outside and watch the rest of the team finish. The next day was even better, most of the team spent it on the beach and over “refreshing” drinks in South Beach reminiscing about the brutal, flat, scenic course and our training to get to this point. What a team, I have truly have the best team ever!
Days later, we’re back in the cold and I am swapping emails with my teammate (who shall remain nameless here, but she knows who she is!) and she’s like, “I’m thinking about signing up for Providence full.” Too bad she couldn’t see me, because my jaw dropped! She’s the one who originally said one marathon was enough. So we swap some more messages, and we both agree that maybe our bodies have had enough but our brains still want more. I sign up for a couple more shorter NYRR races – you know a 5K and 4-miler are short… a year ago, if you told me I’d think like that I’d tell you, you were crazy.
Brain still not fulfilled. I am swapping messages with another teammate and I’m sharing my thoughts on this with him. Of course, he’s like let’s sign up for Jersey Shore half-marathon and I’m like, ugh, no, I’m already running two half marathons in March and April. The half is not as much fun and waiting until November to run a full seems so far away. (Someone please remind me how I felt starting at mile 13 on this race.) He’s like, yeah, let’s definitely run the full in May… haha, okay, compulsive me didn’t sign up for the race yet. I promised I’d think about it but I don’t handle peer pressure very well. Tough love, huh? I drag my brain and body through months of training, a disappointing race, and I want to run another one? Clearly, this is the thought process of an addicted and insane runner!

“Don’t stop believin’…”

“Don’t stop believin’
Hold on to the feelin'”
–“Don’t Stop Believin'”, Journey

I had one of those days last week during our speed workout on Tuesday evening… it was cold (though not as cold as it was last night) and I just felt overall bummed out about my day at work. I took it all out at practice, and not with my running but with my complaining. I really don’t know how Coach B deals with us, namely me. We were running our version of Yasso 800s, “Coach B 1-milers” around the lower loop of Central Park and all I could do was whine about this, and about that, the distance, the workout, the cold, the hunger pains… Coach B said something snide, I honestly don’t remember it anymore, and asked if that would mean he would make it into my blog. Seeing that I don’t remember what the comment was, I can’t even give him credit for it, but what I can give him credit for is a later conversation we had. We were talking about whether or not we would continue training after the Miami marathon and before the NYC Half.

C: “Brian, I want to shave 5 seconds off my half time. Do you think that is possible with a month of training before March?”
B: “Uh, yeah, that is easy. 5 seconds?”
C: “Oh, duh. No, I mean 5 minutes. I’d like to run it in under 2 hours.”
B: “You’ll need speed work. It’s definitely possible, it just means your pace needs to be faster.”
C: “Wow, Coach, thanks. I didn’t realize that trying to run faster meant a faster pace…”

To be fair, this was at the end of practice and I think we (me) had tired out our Coach.

Even during the taper, it seems like I’ve spent quite a bit of time running. I haven’t met Josh at work in a while, so I attempted to do so last week on Wednesday and Thursday. Due to the colder temperatures, I need to prepare in the morning by giving him an extra coat to take to work with him for me to wear after the run. Since the Path train route from Jersey City to Hoboken is not running yet due to Hurricane Sandy, Josh has been taking the Light Rail. He’s been trying to get adjusted to the new schedule, timing with our apartment shuttle, and having to wait outside instead of underground in the warmth. Before I leave for my runs, I need to find out what time Light Rail he’s planning on taking, and the first day, I sprinted the last mile to make it on time, only to learn that Josh was wrong about the schedule and that I was seven minutes early! Well, I definitely learned my lesson to check on the times myself and that running in the cold to then commute home is not fun.

This past weekend, in addition to working on Saturday, we enjoyed quite a full couple of days. After work on Saturday, we finally went to our Christmas / Hanukkah dinner at riverpark, a Tom Colicchio restaurant. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am obsessed with Tom’s restaurants with my all-time favorites being Craftbar and Colicchio & Sons. Not that I am a food connoisseur or anything, but I just felt like riverpark did not live up the expectations I normally have for Tom Colicchio restaurants. The food wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t amazing. For our cocktails, we had a Dark and Stormy, which was pretty good and tasted like there was real ginger in it and the Copper Canyon, which was lemon-verbana infused tequila with grapefruit and orange bitters. I typically stay away from drinking a couple weeks leading up to my races, but I’m glad I made the exception. We started our meal with the Kobacha Custard & Crab Fondue and a small order of the Squid Ink Chitarra. The fondue was pretty tasty, but the pasta dish tasted like there was too much lemon for our taste. Our entrees were the Merluza and Beef Ribeye and Brisket. Josh really enjoyed his Merluza (a flaky, white fish, same texture as cod), but I felt like my beef dish was just okay. Finally, we shared the Chocolate Souffle Cake, which was also just okay. Overall, I am glad we went to try the restaurant but I was slightly disappointed. However, this doesn’t change my overall impression of Tom’s restaurants and I very much look forward to trying Topping Rose House in Bridgehampton.

Josh and I finally ran together after a couple weeks. I was able to sneak in a couple miles after a morning at a hot bikram yoga class at Surya Yoga and before my long run the next day and Josh was also able to complete a couple himself despite not running in a month or so. We usually start out together and end separately because I’ll usually go longer and slightly faster. However, as I see other couples run together, it makes me think I should try to be accommodating. In no way, am I “fast” but perhaps, I should learn to pace better? It doesn’t work out as well when I am trying to increase distance since we try to finish up around the same time, but maybe something to try when I am in my running lull between races.

Statue of Liberty in the background

I didn’t sleep well at all on Sunday night. I woke up every 20 minutes the last two hours before my alarm was supposed to go off. When I finally woke up, I started coughing and had a big headache. Scared that I was getting sick, I drank a cup of Emergen-C with my breakfast before heading out for our last long run before Miami. Monday was also when it started getting colder. The temperatures were hovering around 32 when I met the team. Fortunately for me, we agreed to meet at the ferry terminal on 39th Street and the West Side Highway, so I was literally just an eight-minute ferry ride away, but the team had to travel a little ways to meet up. Even though it was hard to get started, it was really gorgeous run down to the Staten Island ferry along the Hudson and back.

Since I wasn’t feeling well, I cancelled my dinner plans and ended up cooking at home… so begins my carb-loading! Before Hurricane Sandy hit, I made bibimbap for the first time to kick-off carb-loading in anticipation of the NYCM. For the Philadelphia marathon, I think I just ate a lot of pasta since I didn’t have a whole lot of time to prepare for that one. This time, I tried making bibimbap again and was really glad we stopped at the Korean grocery store the other night and picked up Gochujang sauce, a Korean red-chili pepper-based condiment. While, I don’t think it came out as well this time, it was still pretty yummy. In case you’re interested, my version of bibimbap includes brown rice, grass-fed lean ground beef, spinach, mushroom, bean sprouts, carrots, daikon, zucchini, pepper, and normally, I’d include an egg, but I forgot this time.

Glad to be finally inside and warm!

Last night, in 16 degree temperatures (wind chill in the single digits), we completed our last speed workout before Miami. I am surprised that I am still not freezing. Sprinting in the cold was not fun and I am not sure it was even less fun for Coach B to be standing in the cold waiting for us. I promise to try to bring back some warmer weather from Miami. In the mean time, I am looking forward to my couple days of tapering, pedicure tonight, and massage tomorrow.

I imagine the next time I post will be after the marathon, however, if you’re interested in tracking me during the race, visit this page on Sunday morning and enter in my bib number: 3667. The official marathon start is at 6:15 AM but I imagine with the corrals I won’t be starting until shortly after. Keep my teammates and I in your thoughts!

And that’s all for now… have a good evening!